Thursday, May 20, 2004


i have moved! here.

Wednesday, May 5, 2004


this morning i woke up crying. i had an awful nightmare last night. i know i'm pretty much a bad story teller, but i'll give it my best shot.

me ade and mut were having some seminar thing inside a room. it was pretty normal at first, cept that we were trying to find out how the guy sitting beside addie was related to her. he was the biker type, with leather jackets and all. the weird thing was he was calling me, and i was just sitting behind him. weird huh?

then the seminar ended. we packed up our stuff, getting ready to go home. i had a lot of tissue to clear up for some reason, and ade and mut went downstairs first. when i wanted to leave the room, i realised that there was a lot of toxic waste on my shoes and socks. so i had to make do without them. the building was horrendous to walk through. it was like singapore casket. completely dark, with only one candle lighting up the whole floor. and i was alone. by myself. i could hear weird noises coming from different parts of the level. and i was dead scared. the elevator finally came. and inside the elevator was euqally as frightening. it was totally pitch black. and huge. and it shook. it shook a lot. i had nothing to grab onto for support. but it finally ended. and i came out the first floor.

and i realised that my two best friends have left me all alone in the most deserted place ever.

the building was inescapable. i ran and ran all over the porch and there was no exit. my feet burned from running on tar. i could feel my heart pounding against my ribcage. i had never felt so scared before in all my life. they had left me there. to die. alone.

being alone. that's my greatest fear.

dreams say a lot about me. most of the time it's silly dreams. dreams like having bio lessons in a toilet. i rarely have nightmares. when i do, it means that i feel alone. i feel very very alone.

every one of my nightmares have to do with me being alone.
why do i feel so lonely? i feel that it's because of the amount of criticisms our clique gives each other. we never encourage each other. we only criticize. and i feel that should change. i went through some thinking today, and i feel that i never look on the bad side of people, unless they're really bad.-think mohan- with the exception of our clique. maybe it's a form of defense, that since you critcize me so much, i should do the same. i really don't know.
i find spending time with dragon so much better than with ade or mut is because she accepts me for myself. she doesn't criticize my every action. being around ade or mut is so tiresome, because i'm never myself. i'm never who i want to be around them. they never take anything i say seriously. i'm not saying i don't do my fair share of criticisms, but i only do so when the situation becomes unbreable.

i expect everyone to laugh my nightmare off like it's nothing. well, yes. it means nothing to you, but for me, it made me realised certain emotions and things about me that i have forgotton. that i once knew.

i don't feel as though i've been treated as part of the MADE family. i feel like a stranger. like i'm just there. i trust these people with my life. i really do. but i doubt the feel the same for me. and that's the cause of my over-sensitivity.

i really really want things to change. but i of course cannot do it alone. never alone. i feel we should constantly give encouragement to people. tell people where they're headed for that's in the right direction, not the opposite. cos if we tell them that they're going the wrong way, they'll ask, "then what is right?" and most of the time an answer cannot be made. and thus they continue as they were.

show people what's right, not what isn't. or the very least, both.

Monday, April 19, 2004


One boy One girl

He finally gave into his friend's girlfriend when she said
"There's someone you should meet."
At a crowded restaurant way 'cross town
He waited impatiently

She walked in, their eyes met, and they both stared
And right there and then, everyone else disappeared

But one boy, one girl
Two hearts beating wildly
To put it mildly, it was love at first sight
He smiled, she smiled, and they knew right away
This was the day they'd waited for all their lives
And for a moment the whole world
Revolved around one boy and one girl

In no time at all they were standing there,
in the front of a little church
Among their friends and family, repeating those sacred words
The preacher said, "Son kiss your bride"
and he raised her veil
Like the night they met, time just stood still

For one boy, one girl
Two hearts beating wildly
To put it mildly, it was love at first sight
He smiled, she smiled, they knew right away
That this was the day they'd waited for all their lives
For a moment the whole world
Revolved around one boy and one girl

He was holding her hand when the doctor looked up and grinned
"Congratulations. Twins..."

One boy, one girl
Two hearts beating wildly
To put it mildly it was love at first sight
He smiled, she smiled
And they knew right away
That this was the day they'd waited for all their lives
And for a moment
The whole world revolved around
one boy and one girl

Monday, April 12, 2004


we won the debate! i tell you! i was sooo angry at the opposition. they disregarded our definition, clarification and even some of our points. grrr... i was hopping mad lor. so i made it known through the reply speech i was writing for charmaine. kekekeke. i mean, hello, we already said when we meant that singaporeans are parochial, we do not mean that they are ignorant or unintelligent. and the opposition went, "singaporeans are not ignorant!". gah.

for the first time in my entire upper secondary school life i PASSED A CHEM TEST! 21/40. not really a good grade, but a start, nonetheless. i realised i have a lot of homework to finish, yet i ain't getting started on it. lately i'm been slacking off, both on academics and my "great diet plan". lol.

i broke a glass cup on the buffet table at intercontinental hotel yesterday. i was traumatized. i went to the toilet and started crying. also dunno why. shucks. i guess i'm not emotionally strong. not good really. girls always get hurt by guys. or at least, i always get hurt by guys.

it is almost impossible for the ways of the spoilt to mend. i agree with muthu on that one. sad i feel, for the spoilt. it'll be difficult to be a well rounded person.

Wednesday, March 31, 2004


cutting up eyes is fun! but sorry sara dear, our eyeball liquid thingy flew right at you! the lense came out was super nice though, you should have seen it! the perfect perfect lense!

i kinda missed going to church on thursdays. it's kinda my stress reliever day, but lately, with the millions gazillion things going on in school, plus amelia overworking herself[which is causing me to worry a little -frown-]i have been missing DOC. i really would like to know what is going on about the kenya mission trip we're planning.

but anyway,our debate topic is driving me nuts. i can easily say i have no passion for it, because i myself AM parochial! i don't bloody care about what's happening around the other side of the world or to another person. ho hum.

was teaching dragon how to seduce people today. she apparently, is horrible. she doesn't have the touch. i would advise her to become chibi, snuggle and swat the other person as "flirting" and "forplaying" but she being her stubborn self wouldn't listen and is trying to make herself "seductive" by stroking and such, which completely spoils the atmosphere because she just doesn't have the touch!

that's all for you today. you take care. have fun!

Sunday, March 14, 2004


i am a debator. i am bloody having cold feet now. i can't debate for nuts! anyway, watched big fish and haunted mansion. really nice. big fish is better. haunted mansion, well, it's starting was good, but the humor was dry andthe horror wasn't really horrific.

mwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeee. the irony! the blk opposite my church number is "66". i had a really strange dream. of a woman's lost soul and her pet giant platypus. all our burns were bad. my scalp got burnt. it was peeling like muthu's back was. so now i look like i have a massive dandruff attack.

AMI rocks. it's so cute. =) jon peter lewis! john stevens! mweeeeee

the photo course was dumb though, i kinda knew everything htey taught. was fun playing with an slr though. =)

Friday, March 5, 2004


you think you're so great don't you? think that this whole episode is so funny from your point of view? ha. ha. ha. get a life. what you're doing is just plain childish and immature. why do you even bother? don't like me? just tell it to me straight in the face. why bother doing this weird out of the blue thing. maybe i was surprised at first, but really, i don't fucking care. go on with your stupid joke. it's not gonna affect me. go on. keept giving my number out to guys on irc. go on. keep telling them you're me. keep inviting them over to my house. go on. see if i care. in my opinion, you're just a spastic loser.

Monday, February 23, 2004


i need to say something. i need to shout it out loud to everyone. i love DOC!! there. it's really funny. and lame. all thanks to the infamous trio, adrian, sean and gabriel. and of course, occassionally sheldon. these guys are pure chaos. not to mention a few of the above do not do work. gloria has yet to come and sit in. but for sure, when she comes, the whole sean/gloria love/hate relationship thingy will start up. again. tee hee.

DOC is not only refreshing for my everyday routine life, it is highly stress relieving. after a long day of teachers, tests, reminders that o level is this year, more tests, more teachers, and finally the thing i puke the most blood over, cca, i get to just chill with these funky dudes and dudettes in church, and they will never fail to make me laugh.

sure it eats into the time i have to study, to revise, to do whatever... but on the other hand, it saves me from a mental breakdown. and everytime i see gabriel and sean, i and reminded of the fact that they are in triple science, and thus they make me stardee. sean espcially. right sean darling?

i just wanted to shout out to the whole, that i absolutely do not have any regrets joining my church youth group, the Disciples of Christ!!!

Saturday, February 21, 2004


compewtah's down. love you lots.

i hate my life. then again, since when did i like it.
hohohoho

Saturday, February 14, 2004


nanyang poly. my choice.

took a funky photo with my friends during recess. yay. have one photo of our clique. missing satan though. satan's always MIA.

valentines day is a day to spend with the people you love. my guess is that ain't gonna happen for me. no friends to spend with. no.. *ahem*. just yuki and me. and i have the tiring job of bathing yuki. again. my father is so lazy.

cold. lets all suffer the cold.

Sunday, February 8, 2004


something is seriously wrong with my page. everthing's gone haywire.

it needs a good revamp. lalala. the weirdest thing is that i recall updating but it didn't. hmmmm...
and now my taggie doesn't wanna work for me. might as well just take it down.

devart has not taken my heart and soul. devart is a place where rips happen. i go there cos i have no where else to go online, but that doesn't mean i only go there. i do surf around other places you fags.

something seriously smells like burnt cucmber. oh poor larry.

Sunday, January 4, 2004


i'm sorry to everyone who has been coming here to find that i haven't updated in a really long time. i've been rather busy. and well.. i'm lazy. lets see what happened to me so far. my dog had lung infection, animania-- the sweat and blood put into it, the quarrels and the laughs, the bangkok trip... adam khoo talk.. what else? school of rock, lord of the rings. lots of things happened.

i don't have much to say. first day of school was fun. i can't wait for the doc session this thursday! woot! wheeeee.... my random ramblings has ended. toodles.

Thursday, December 11, 2003

the show is worth watching, if you pretend you haven't watched any disney films before. remember the seagulls from finding nemo? they kept saying, "mine mine mine mine mine"? remember? well, in brother bear, the seagulls go, "fish fish fish fish fish"... and not to mention the second oldest brother of the tree looked like he came from mulan. then there was the overdone i'm falling from the cliff from the lion king, both one and two. there might be more. i just can't happen to recall them at the moment. oh yes, disney has a nasty habit of making a nice character die ant the start of the movie, such as in finding nemo.

all these aside, the show was wonderful. i watched in the digital format, the new cinemas at cathay, and the quality was superb. the story line wasn't really that original... but it was really sad, and touching. it talks about love and care, more specifically, between brothers. it has a good amount of humor, with the two moose as the side lines are little comments here and there. but near and at the end... it was seriously touching. you could actually feel for the bear, humans, and spirits. i was bawling by the end of the show. i needed a hug, by ade was mean and didn't hug me :(

we also watched love actually. i'd say it's a really nice film. really hilarious... but not worth the money to watch on big screen. don't get me wrong. it's a must watch. but to watch it on big screen is just a waste of money. any tv will be fine. both films are a must watch. *thumbs up*

Monday, December 8, 2003


wokay. i forgot to update last night. this is what happened so far as i can remember:

i was supposed to meet gloria, sean, amelia, gabriel and goodness knows who else for mass at eleven. the previous night [or morning] i slept really late... like at six.. my stupid nose kept me up the whole night. so yes. i overslept. the mass was at eleven, i woke up at half past eleven. so i ended up meeting them for lunch instead. everyone [sean, gabriel, amelia, jessica[gloria went to collect free lotr tix]] had ban mien and johnny and adrian had chicken rice. it was seriously weird to see everyone eating the same things. hahahaa then soon, eveyone left. it was just me and gabriel. we both didn't want to go home. so we went wandering aimlessly around central. we went to kiddy palace and played with all the weird toys and books. it was really funny. but soon i felt sleepy. so i went home. and the stupid boy didn't know simple directions. lol.

had a nice three and a half hour talk with addie last night [my phone bill!] and i realised that actually christianity has imprinted a lot of values in me that i didn't know existed. it was really weird. i got to know addie better, and i got to know myself better. really nice talking to her like that. but i got sleepy and nae at her to let me sleep. teehee.

Sunday, November 30, 2003


i have to make a serious announcement.

i really must tell pple about the wonderful and scary thing that happened on wednesday. God truely exists and he listens to the most minor thing! it was like this. me and my sister were waiting in outram park mrt for this guy who was bringing us out for dinner. we were really early and my sister had a book in her hands. when my sister has a book in her hands it means one thing: she'll be completely oblivious to whatever is happening around her. i was bored. i was REALLY bored. i walked up and down the train carraiges and examined each door and sat down again. and walked up and down again. and then sat back down again. you get the idea. i was so bored i decided to pray. so i just said to God, "hello there. i'm really bored at the moment. can you tell i'm bored? i'm sure you can, seeing my walk up and down upteem times..." and the next thing i know my sister, [who was in the middle of a chapter] suddenly fished out a dilbert comic from her bag and said "nah read this lar." she also told me how weird it was for her to stop in the middle of the chapter to do something like it. like i said, it was highly unlikely.

gotta rush of for church now. happy holidays!

Sunday, November 23, 2003

i shall never mock sean for praying on his blog ever again. why? because i'm going to do it right here, right now. because of something that really touched me today.

Almighty Father,
I really want to thank you for giving me such good friends. Friends that I can rely on. Friends that will help me in time of need. I was really touched by what muthu did today, Lord, and I really hope you shower your blessings upon her. She's such a bright and cheerful girl, which brings us so much joy and laughter. Amen.

muthu you're such a nice friend! i love you so much! what you did today was really really sweet. i mean, after i woke you up at nine thirty in the morning to rant about my mom, you still offered to let me stay at your place for a while if i find the need to. thanks dear. it might not mean much to you... but it meant the world to me. i've always felt that no one cared. but that little gesture... oh man. muthu you rock. :)

okay. main thing that happened today was the confirmation. at first... i kinda thought it was another ritual. like, something we have to go through. but when i was annointed, i felt something. i don't know how to describe it. my vocabulary isn't good. like and overwhelm of all kinds of emotions... felt really... special.

that's about my day's event. and i still love my boots :)

Friday, November 21, 2003


liking someone is really very hard. especially if that someone is already taken. so i shall solemly swear that from this day forth i will do my best to not care about that person anymore. it's difficult. but i will definitely try my very best. i kinda hate it when i'm dumped into this kinda situation. it's not the first time. it's kinda sad ya know, how everyone's so lucky in life? sure, i mean, i've got friends that will go through thick and thin together. but on the other hand, my family's collapsing. and my so called love life sucks like shit. okay, so i'm young. maybe i'll find that "mr. right" somewhere out there when i grow older. but then again...

...what if i never find him? [or her? kekeke.]

on a lighter note. today went to have lunch with gloria and sean. sean was late. again. hahaha. anyway, the both of them are crap lar. put them together you have two people poking each other non stop. thank goodness i'm not scared to being poked at the waist. father sean is scared though! wahahaha. he couldn't find my weak spot. too bad for him! gloria ah. lousy convent girl. don't know f-language properly. should talk to you more in f-language.

something unexpected happened from something bad that happened today. my journey with chocolate. i shall hope and pray that none of st paulians read this. it is gonna spoil the surprise. so go away if you're a st pualian. you're gonna get it tmr anyway. well, yes. today i started baking brownies. i haven't baked brownies for a good half a year already, and apparently i forgot the correct amount of water and i put too much! then somehow it became very lumpy, which doesn't make sense at all, cos it should be watery. and then... i just sat there and stirred and stirred and stirred. stir until my hand wanna break off le. i think i must have been at it for more than an hour. and something amazing happened after stirring for so long. the mix became silky smooth!

moral of the story: stirring is good when you're baking. :)

Thursday, November 20, 2003


THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME:

01 | god
02 | the idea of being alone
03 | addie and mootoo when they're hyper

THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:

01 | mootoo
02 | melissa
03 | sean

THREE THINGS I LOVE:

01 | yuki baby!
02 | my phone
03 | my bolster.

THREE THINGS I HATE:

01 | addie/mootoo's whining
02 | bitchy-ness
03 | dolls

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:

01 | slamd
02 | love
03 | hate

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:

01 | the cute letter amelia gave us for our camp
02 | my dog [ i left her there. hahaha]
03 | unfinished homework.

THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:

01 | err...breathing?
02 | typing?
03 | yelling, "STOP BARKING LAH YUKI!"

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:

01 | hug that someone special
02 | kiss that someone special
03 | achieve at least one thing i can say i'm proud of.

THREE THINGS YOU'D LIKE TO LEARN:

01 | astronomy
02 | molecular biology
03 | marine biology

THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:

01 | water
02 | chinese tea
03 | earl grey tea

THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:

01 | power rangers!
02 | teenage mutant ninja turtles
03 | the care bears!

RANDOM QUESTIONS...

01 | Spell your name backwards: htebazile haras hog?
02 | How did you name your blog?: i have no idea.
03 | Are you homosexual? nope.

-.W H O.-

[makes you laugh the most?]: mootoo. sean. about the same larr
[makes you smile]: sebastian!
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: shhh... we are hunting wabbits
[has a crush on you]: shall respect their privacy and not put their names up here.
[easiest to talk to]: yuki?

-D O.Y O U.E V E R.-

[sit on the Internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?]: yep. quite suprise i do actually.
[save aol/aim conversations]: yea... just for fun.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: nay. girls can be quite urgh everytime of the month but i'd rather be a girl than a guy.
[cry because of someone saying something to you]: all the time.


-.W H O.W A S.T H E.L A S T.P E R S O N.-

[you talked to on the phone]: someone that called. wrong number.
[hugged]: sebastian!
[you instant messaged]: sean? oh wait. jenny! my godma!
[you laughed with]: addie!

Wednesday, November 19, 2003


i really really need to rant about the nasty irritating bullshit taxi driver that fetched me to school this morning. here goes.
i was late. so i had to take a cab to school. apparently the cab driver didn't know where amk st 13 was and didn't bother to ask me and drove round and round and round in circles! after that he even drove into oncoming traffic! talk about thrill? haha. he got us freaking lost in amk. and when i finally reached school, he had the nerve to charge me extra! i was too late to bloody care about him so i just stuffed him money and ran off. but i was bloody pissed i tell you. taxi drviers like him should be BANNED. urgh.

i had the mentality to change my blog layout. damn lazy lar. so just changed the gbk into a tagboard. talked to baby satan just now. miss her so much. i mean, i seldom get to see her. she's not taking any of the same classes as i do, and we don't go for recess together. miss her soooo much. *gives satan baby a BIG hug*

addie's gonna chop, slice, dice, grill, tear, and hack me to bits when she reads the next part. or she's gonna whine. and whine. and whine. i don't want to go shopping on friday! i have so many things to do! [apparently now church people come here, i wanna keep it as a surprise therefore i shall not disclose anything]. there. i have said it. you can do whatever you want to me already. *imitates addie* "i don't fucking care!" i don't like shopping! i never did! its so... ... urgh when unnecessary.

animania is kinda driving me nuts. the fact that satan does not have flash is driving us even more insane. she needs to draw the pumpkins! we need the pumpkins! we have everything BUT the pumpkins! and the fish. sorry ade, i really don't like your fish. i find the mouth too small. i want a camera angle where we see the fish trying to chomp at the "camera". [i think that'll be quite cool actually.] the introduction of the whole thing is giving me a migrane. especially the letter "a" *stares at addie* anyway, to those who has no idea wad animania is, its a competition where we have ta come up with an animation. hopefully a good one. well well well.

i'm wearing hello kitty pyjamas today. makes me feel like i'm six years old or something. ah yes. i realise i have a problem. my earing won't come off my ear!

Tuesday, November 18, 2003


i'm back everyone! and im so hyper! i'm so hyper im scaring myself! the camp was really really great. it was so fun i tell ya! like, we had a really funky group and we had really funky facillitators. but kinda sad. i know that somehow i'll lose contact with a lot of my friends after all this is over. me and elizabeth were talking about it at mos burger after the camp. saying that the first person to lose contact with would be joan... we seldom see her or hang out with her. she doesn't have msn or a handphone as well. really sad.

the past three years in risen christ have been really great. i love my class. i love them so much. amelia, i really think she's pretty. and nice. and cute. don't know her well, but i think she's really a sweet girl. brendon. kinda quiet in class. but fun to talk to :D carolyn. she's a really funky dudette! :) funloving lar she. and really crazy. cheryle. sweet. and quiet. but i find that you are quite responsible :) christina. she's really very loud! lame!!! cherie, you super ultra smart you know. really irritating how smart you are. you xiaobaihu you. =P the two christophers. kinda get mixed up with them. chris sim i find is really fillial, nice, and very responsible. chris loh... laminosity! don't really know him that well. denise, i'll pray for you too gal! :D:D eleazar, didn't know you lived so near me! next time we hang out together yar? brid bird! we MUST keep in contact arh! esther. you are ms practical and MRS blur. wahahaha. damn cute leh you. gabriel. not shy. nuff said. geraldine. VERY shy. nuff said. jean. at first i thought you were kinda bitchy. actually you're really nice :D joan! baby joan! you are soooooooo huggable. love ya lots. joan anne. you are as crazy as carolyn i say. john. act macho sia you. whahaha. got toothpaste down your pants. play gb together? johnathon....... .... .. . . . . . . -.-. josephine! really have a lot of initiative. rock on! jude. wahaha. you eat less than bird. dun go for eating competitions lar yar. kelvin. mr guai kia. have fun somemore lar. and talk more! you're really nice. :) leo-nard. the class clown. gonna miss your lousy and lame remarks man. marianne. we live on the same block! with sam! wheeeeeeeee! tricia. see you in bio/chem. hahahhaa. can go and bish frog face together. valerie. i think you're really really pretty! and funky! you rock!

thats about my whole class. i really hope we keep in contact. the guys are lame but damn funni. the girls are really nice and sweet. and sebastian and patricia are just plain FUNKY!

more about the camp? nothing much to say lar. you have to be there to experience the fun. my group mates were really nice. amelia, andrian, angelina[j&s], vanessa, daphne, eshter, gloria, gabriel, kenneth, matthew and mr holy holy father sean chua! love them to bits man. [i've got a lot of love to go round :):)] then there's mah bunk mates. bernie, birdie, esther, carol, carolyn, vanessa, cherie, and joan. love our late nights together. super ultra corney! we gave hell for the facillitators though. wahahaha.

heard from bird that this was sebastian first confo class. no wonder he cried so much. see him cry made me sad :( he's really the best cat class teacher i ever had! you have to agree. he's really GOOD! gonna miss he's infamous "see me after class!". :(

there've been joy and laughter. i really hope that there would be more of that to come.

Tuesday, November 11, 2003


i went to watch the matrix again with my dad. lol. two time before the first weekend was through. how's everyone? i wonder. i had a really weird dream last night. about games carnival. i told shuwei to put me for hockey or soccer. either or. so she put me for soccer. then that day i didn't know wad to wear. class tee or pe tee. so i went to sch with pe tee. everyone told me to wear class tee. i went home, and didn't bother going school anymore.

did anyone see mr wong on tv? it was so unfair! he could have been the brainiest teacher! it was that toopid ger that took his question lor! so infuriating!!!! grrrrr. but wads done is done. :)

Friday, November 7, 2003

watched matrix revolutions yesterday on imax theatere. with anna addie mootoo and darren. darren was such a quiet boy!. shy? stoning? bored? god knows. ah well. wonderful. now a lot of pple owe me money. wahahahaha. there are spoilers ahead so don't read if you don't want to know what happened. my total rating for it would be three stars. its not goo enough for four.

the ending really started where it left off. apparently they had two ships left, with three captains on board. neo requested to take one ship to go the the machine world. trinity followed. smith got into bane's body, [how, i dunno] and caused neo to go blind. trinity died in the machine world. sad.

then came the hammer, where they had to get back asap to the dock of zion. they're amp could stop the whole mass of machines from attacking them. they did it, but another wave of machines were ready to attack again. a lot of pple died. quite sad and gory. but the kid proved his worth. :)

the rest was up to neo again. he had asked for a peace treaty with the maker[who looks like a giant baby, in my opinion] and then went off to find smith. the part was not badly done. cept it looked painful. i liked the angle of this one better than the first two matrixes. even though no bullets[it was rain] i felt that if they had put bullets again it would be so repetetive it'd be boring. so the rain was good. neo died in the end though. poor guy. well, at least he's with trinity now.

it ended with the oracle and the nice sky. really pretty, but a stupid ending. really really dumb ending. does anyone believe that the one will rise again? oh well. the whole movie was suspenseful and somewhat gory. ending sucked. therefore my verdict: three stars.

i pierced my ears a few days ago. i keep forgetting they'er there. and god knows how rough i am to myself. wahahaha. should see wad i do. owwwwww. pain. esp when changing. my shirts just go right over my head with thining that there are earings on. sheesh.

Saturday, November 1, 2003


parents are entirely upset with my results. sigh. no good. no comp for the rest of my life before o level.damn sick sia. mommy gave me a long lecture on it.urgh. today was fun though. sad, but fun. last cat class lesson, thats why even with a temperature, i lugged myself to church. same group as gabriel for confo camp. wheeeeeeee. i was praying so hard i wouldn't be johnathon or christopher loh. or jude. lol.

my dreams are getting weird and weirder. last night i dreamt that my mom hired an indian man and a indonesian maid to work for us. the thing is, they were both invisible. and the indian man had to sleep in my sister's room for some apparent reason. then i kept ordering them to work cos i thought seeing things floating around was damn funnie. next thing i know, i dreamt andrew was in our house playing computer. then i woke up, walked into my sisters room and guess wad i see? andrew had come to our house to play computer. lol. :D thats all. i'll update when i have another weird dream.

Monday, October 27, 2003


lets see. this is gonna be a very busy holiday! i'm gonna list down all i'm gonna do this holiday. hmmmmmm.

pierceears.
sva.
animania.
hdbphotocomp.
extralessons.
lotsandlotsoftuition.
savemoolah.
buycamera.
goout.
party.
secfourfarewell.
catclass.
churchcamp.
morextralessons.
classwebbie.
myownwebbie.
confrimation.
bringyukiout.
loselotsaweight.
touchuponmyphotoshopskills.
photography.
slamdoutings.
threepureoutings.
ccafairnxtyr.

thats all i got so far. i found some clothes for the drama fest... sheesh, don't i look horrible in a dress! i'm acting as "lady olivia" ewwww!! hahaha. oh well, lets have fun and not care about anything else. dragon's malvolio. anna's orisno. i wonder how their costumes are gonna be like. mine's fine... as long as shuwei and co don't add anything weird to it[like the funkytoodee glasses]. i'm supposed to be "royalty" here! :P

Friday, October 24, 2003


apparently i typed a really long entry. and pitas deleted it. *grunts*

so this is a summary. nine thirty-boards ultra crowded train to sentosa. siloso beach. pink preppy giggly girls. *shudders* ate at delifrance. talked. ate sommore. had lemon tea with a peach tart. they didn't have diabolos. sad. went onto the blue line bus. got daoed by MA.

reached the beach. took lots and lots and lots of photos. gonna have a whole album or two. yay. whee. build an irrigation system only to find it was the breeding ground of some thing. something green. swam around. crashed into the rocks. got cut. pain. then we met this sec one guy called daniel. he was so cute! got this little boy face. wahaha. makes me feel so old now. played frisbee. wheeeeee. met lots of indians. wahha. ate at delifrance again.

and then LAM came back to my house. since it was the nearest. showered. played computer. watched charlie's angel-full throttle. went to makan at orange julius. decided that the people thought we were all mad. so the day closes. trying to edit pictures now. yay. `tata.

Wednesday, October 22, 2003


i've succeded in deleting every single of my entries. took my a good half an hour and made my keyboard hang. i don't know how it made my keyboard hang but it did. apparently the links look strangely out of place, and i can't really see the problem in my html.

tmr there's the lets play session. hmmm... i'll be running round the school with dragon in the amazing race thing. i'd rather not absent myself from school anymore.

its quite a sad thing. i kinda always feel left out from the clique. i kinda feel like they don't want me there, and are just too polite to say anything. reason why i kinda hang out with dragon more often is because she doesn't insult the hell outta me, neither does she go "fuck you." or show the third finger at everything i do. sigh. oh well. nothing is perfectly alright for me.

my marks are horrible. but at least i'll get into sec four. i'm not gonna disclose anything here. you want to know, you ask. the past few days has been somewhat hellish for me. and i am extremely saddened. but somehow i'm getting irritated with myself. i feel that if i were a third person looking at myself, i'll probably feel a sense of *hatred* for me. i don't love myself. i should start to. lets see.

didn't really mean it. sigh. shall try again another day. leave me. let my enjoy my private and wallow myself in my despair.